![]() Though I’m not in a near death experience right now, in this God-nudged leap of faith, time is standing still as I see a constant slideshow of what I have lived through as well as what I hope to see once I land. On many levels it may seem foolish that we left steady jobs in a very unsteady job market, but we believed that God would honor our trust in Him to provide for us, knowing we deliberately chose family over financial security. Because again, it’s wasn’t financial security that showed up when I allowed my life to flash before my eyes. Honestly, it wasn’t that difficult for me to abandon the financial security we had back in Nashville. ![]() My wife and I decided that bringing our son into this world meant we should move to my hometown to be surrounded by family. Knowing that the living people who I am closest to are the most important and influential thing in my life, they became the inspiration for my leap of faith. “Loved ones”, as we tend to call these important family members, friends, and mentors- though sometimes that term is used more often after they have passed on. Seeing your life flash before your eyes is a great way to be reminded of what’s truly important to you: People and the important events of our lives that involve them. Interestingly, it’s not career titles or material possessions that are included in these flashes. I would venture to say that every living person is familiar with the idea of your own life flashing before your eyes right before you die- whether you actually die or it’s just a near death experience. You have no idea what I’m talking about, I’m sure. And I can’t feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it. My heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and it’s too much. Or my grandmother’s hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper… It’s hard to stay mad when there’s so much beauty in the world. And yellow leaves from the maple trees that lined our street. For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout Camp, watching falling stars. It stretches on forever, like an ocean of time. First of all, that one second isn’t a second at all. “I’d always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. I will begin with an excerpt from the final scene of the movie American Beauty, narrated by the protagonist “Lester Burnham”- played by Kevin Spacey:
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